Alright, so I wrote this on the spur of the moment when I should be working. Oh, well!TITLE:
Letter to DannyPAIRING:
Nicholas is leaving. He can't even stand to say goodbye, so he writes Danny a letter instead.
I remember that it was a very long time ago now when I first broke. I believe that everyone experiences something like that in their lifetime, if not once then a thousand times over.
I remember the moment you broke me.
I shattered into a million pieces, each fragment more precious and brilliant than the last, but not one of them did I give a care to, save the one I kept close to give to you. I wanted you to have that piece of me. The others were for dust and time to weather away.
I remember waiting for you, time and again, looking for a spark in your eye or a twist in your smile that would tell me it was time. I felt so naked in front of you, desperate and frightened, but with every passing day, the truth of the matter became clearer.
I’ll never know how you felt for me, I’m afraid. I know that, in your kindness, you might take my love in stride and even try to return it, but as to whether it would be genuine I could never be certain.
I know you, Danny.
That is why I’m doing this. I hope that you’ll understand it was for both our sakes, that distance alone can keep us ever-close, and that no matter what evil words might fall upon your heart, I never meant anything for you but happiness.
As for me, I’d have you not worry too much. I can make my way, as we both know by now, through difficulties of various descriptions with minimal consequences.
As long as you forgive me-
That piece, the one I kept for you, Daniel, the only one that mattered and ever will…That was my heart. And it’s yours, if ever you decide to want it.